ho hum

Salam.
Hi.
Semi back,

what I did during this time?

everything from learning german to getting married...

I miss blogging.
If I do start blogging again (non-sporadically) then I might create a new blog.

This blog is going to experience a temporary shut down, we don't know how temporary this will be.

what is wrong with my bloglinker?

[edited... ah, seems to be working now]

I also want to learn German.

Does anyone know any good websites which teach german language for beginners?
Or even any good books?
does anyone know german? they say its not too hard, how is it?

things i need to do, now that i am not under school/exam stress

*win the expert level minesweeper
*memorise quran
*read all those books sitting on my bookshelf waiting for me and time
*enhance domestic household skills
*relax about everything, just wait and see what happens.. ive done my part now i just leave the tawakul
*some activity or sport
*say good bye to everyone who i won't see, get their emails..
*teach little sister how to pray, and get her to start praying whenever she remembers
*ponder over my life
*cry over my childhood, and growing up
*try to find somthing to do, see if the center needs help with the little kids quran lessons
*organise my room and stuff
*see which school books might be useful to keep, and which to get rid of
*throw away half the stuff in R's room since its all junk
*throw away half the stuff in the house and keep it tidy and messless and junkless
*argue less with little sisters, be a good big sister
*fill out the AUS application
*get on the case of the stupid university which refused me for hijab, and beat them up because they're not allowed to say that to me
*cry over my childhood some more
*ponder over my life some more
*reply to those emails
*get a gift for M
*think, now that I have time too..

(not necessarily in order of priority)

its good to make a list i suppose, because then i can measure how much i did against how much i was planning to do.. see how much ive accomplished.. lets just see what i can do..

Jumuah Mubarak

What's up with my tagboard?

Summer is almost near, Freedom is almost here. If I can survive this one week without going crazy, or suffering depression, thats a blessing, and I will celebrate once its over.
Most people are going to miss school, I'm not. I could swear to you, this particular school was the worst experience in my life. It just pulls my spirits down, depresses, suppresses.. etc.
How could I miss it? If only you know how happy I am to leave it. Sure, I'm going to miss the great times I had with friends etc, but I am not going to miss school, the bad things in it outweighed the good. Just being surrounded by people like that is enough to make me go crazy. These people are stupid, and I want to forget about them, with the exception of a few. High school classmates are people I want to forget forever, someone who if I saw in a supermarket 10 years down the road, would just casually ignore and avoid, rather than saying... "OH, is that you!!"
The stories I heard have scared me. Sure, I knew people were evil, but I didn't really know it was this bad. Just look at what happened to last years graduates. One guy went to jail for attempted murder, he wrote a really disturbing threat letter to a girl, and he bought a dagger and showed it off. One guy decided to take a year off, and 'chill', now hes a major drug addict. These people mess up their lives, the guy who thinks he is just going to take a year off, really thinks hes going to get back into college? Yeah right. When some of the girls came to visit school this year, I couldn't even look at them anymore... I'm sure they've done things they don't want to talk about. Everyone was just so dark, different. It's like this people go abroad to get corrupted, and yeah, its mostly just the people who went abroad, they couldn't wait to get away from the parents.. and go wild.. mostly non muslims.. but even some of the muslims have changed, not to that extent, but they've changed too..
Don't ask me why I am in this school, I don't know. I guess I didn't really realise the extent of things.. and now I'm finally done. It hasn't really changed me, its just depressed me, more sullen, can't wait to get over.. it was a long hard experience, and its almost done. I still don't know how I got through it without either changing, or going crazy... the only thing its done to me is kept me more quiet and anti social... more depressed and aloof. Now, Freedom is on the doors.
Its just this one week... It sound like JUST a week, but a week is very long thing for me now.. I survived all these years, one more week won't hurt.
Anyways.
I heard stories about the islamic community my family was once part of in America. I'm glad I left?
Things were getting worse, and the islamic school might close, people are being called terrorists in local newspapers, getting threat calls etc. Now theres more families than when we were there, and whenever they want to make decisions they have more problems.. back then it was we all get along sort of thing. It used to like 10 families, all have the same social backround etc.. now, people are not getting along. I heard saaad saad stories..
Yeah... so the weather is getting hotter, unbearably hot here. Summer is here. Freedom is near.
FREEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.islamonline.net/english/News/2003-05/31/article09.shtml

expect this blog to be done with..
but when, i dont know..